Good Morning Ms. Patti and the rest of the Morning staff. I am writing to you in desperation hoping that you and your listeners can shed some light on this "SO CALLED LIFE OF MINE". Let me start of by giving you a little bit of information about myself. I am a 46 year old single mother of 3 beautiful kids and a grandmother of a 9 month old angel. I recently graduated with my degree in Business and I am seeking employment. I have earned my share of money and have never depended on any man to support me financially. So with that said, here goes my story.
After my divorce from my children's father 10 years ago, I met a very, very young man. At the time he was 21 and I was 36. I thought we could have a good time until something better came along. Well as time passed, we bonded and have been together since.
I went through all of his growing pains and even stood by his side faithfully while he did some time for stuff he did during his adolescent years. As much as my friends and co-workers insisted that I look for someone who could take care of me and my kids, I stayed there loyal. I love him dearly and believed in him and his promises that he would some day make me his wife.
Time has gone on and now he wants kids and has made it clear to me that he will not marry me unless I get pregnant. This is where the problem comes in. Shortly after the birth of my son, I decided that it was time to shut down my baby maker. I NEVER lied to him about this but now he see's all his friends having kids and he doesn't want to be left out. To make matters worst, his mother is now interfering with our relationship and has stressed to him that he not be with me anymore.
After all I have done for him and all the time and honesty I have given to this man and his parents. . . this is how they treat me.
I feel betrayed and my heart is torn in two. Times are tuff out there and there are absolutely no good men and if ther are, where are they? I'm not ugly nor do I look my age. . . so what's wrong with me?
I love him so very much and in all honesty, he has nothing to offer me. . . but I don't want to be alone. . . and now that my children are grown and almost all gone, I'm scared.
I'm mad and hurt. . in fact, I'm the reason he has what he has. . . because I pushed him and helped him
He should have told me he wouldn't marry me unless I had his kid 9 years ago, don't you think?
Do I kick him to the curb? Do I stay and hope he changes his mind and grows up and tells his mom to get lost? Or do I stay alone?
I'm tired of crying and having this feeling that I will never experience marriage again.